cycling during the past 24 hrs has left my mind an unfolding, yet to be solved puzzle. it had been a while since my last ride. unexpected sequence, odd-er timing, and moving kinda backwards. even @ work. like what the fuck.
a low-low followed by a fleeting sky-high followed by an anxiety attack induced lower-low meltdown followed by my paranoid angry- low then a low high fading into numbness topped by a mild low that is now intensifying -sighs- exhausting.
however, i hereby report a higher awareness when my short-lived hypomania crashed via paranoid anxiety attack.