sick_and_tired: both severe understatements
how are you?_are you ok?_questions i dread_and most often evade
questions well intended_ i’m aware
i’m brainfucked not stupid_paranoid not suspicious_anxious not afraid
depressed not pessimistic_manic not happy_but how to tell? no clue
i don’t expect your understanding…. yet I have to understand you!
your need to ask a question I can’t fucking answer with the truth
so i always lie at your convenience if i can’t divert your attention
but with each lie I die a little more inside
my sanity withers and my rose petals crumble as they hit the ground
i love me but i hate what i have become.
self portrait #18