just why are you not done (with me) yet? is my exhaustion&zeroproductivity®ressiontoinner child&lackofpeace not enough? i forget this all encompassing void of emptiness amounts to nothing, an integral part of us that can’t be shared or lifted despite the space it takes although its weight quietly&swiftlyyet ever so invisibly is crushing me, restructuring dimensions, rearranging my fragile walls of sanity, hiding my little windows of false hope, distorting the passage of time, silencing my screams. just why don’t you get gone (out of me) yet? this hollow shell of empty beauty is nothing but words contained, letters that amount to nothing that can be shared…
Monthly Archives: August 2014
PendING: MOMENTum
Pendulum back, Pendulum forth: Off with her head
On & on it goes, far & away I drift
On & on it does, now and then boundaries shift
Motion in time stands still… And I can’t let go.
Pendulum off, Pendulum on: Off with my head
Off & off it shivers, not too far yet tethered
Off & off it simmers, now & later it slithers
Pendulum up, Pendulum down: Off with our heads
Cluttered mind & frantic soul- sounds, words & images overflow
Bouncing on my walls until they shatter
Hittin’ me until I’m mostly scattered
Motion in time fails to ensue… And it won’t let go.
Yet I won’t tell, eyes wide shut
In all-intrusive-strangeness I must dwell
In all-exclusive tangents I’m the one thread
Yet I won’t disclose, sexy pouted doll
Not quite smiling, just close enough to almost real
Then Pending Momentum spins the wheel
En route to vulnerable self- erasure I’m incomplete
Yet this vast expansive void of nothingness deems me whole