*subject to the randomly organized shifts ocurring in clusters of 3,5,7 hours… or days, but never weeks. Aka the ‘stable instability’ factor.
Sudden energy shift -back to where it came from out of fuckin’ nowhere with no space for readjustments not coming at me but taking that which I’d just gotten- this artificial energy unadultered now stolen in this double switch: switch.
Sudden instant fatigue –in slow motion my head feels so heavy in commotion my thoughts cluttering -overcome by inertia I collapse wide awake I must close my eyes my head hurts I must try to rest- wide awake I can’t sleep once again muscles tense my mood in suspense but my energy deplete.S lo w l y in creas i n g to 1/2 hyperness– whiplashed I am still may I please have more time before the next switch:switch?
Up-down, left-right, upside-down and viceversa. Unstable motion. Through smoke and mirrors. This figure split in odd angles. All sounds off-key. Untethered perceptions. Speed of light bending shadows. Unfinished momentum. Dangling. Increasing pressure on my neck I can’t breathe I can’t move I can’t speak the energies flow then shatter my shell again. Undone limit. I make my escape from your tightening grip. I Shift, drift and change the prism. I am the beginning, middle and/or end. In Finite Spectrum.
unFin is h ed cOnsCiouSneSs_im Pair e d of AwarEneSs_
inVincible tho InVisible & Vice-versA.
You press PAUSE, I hit PLAY :Master-submissive charade.
in Com pl e t e business_stabbed I am unBLe e ding_
rough around my EdgeS_toRn & HarDcore.
in C r eased hyperALERTneSs:Dark passions Phase
You PULL my plug, I Re-BOOTmy senses : Top-bottom gone SideWaYs.
& I can’t F a De it_stuck between frames_ froze in Mid- ReverSal. DoMiNAncE en-Switch_tiME sPiNs_out-of sync! UnInviteD roles_ All encompassing aSsumption
UnAmused inFUSioN_unFORTUNAte post-incluSioN.
reducing relentlessly push-&-pullin’ so restlessly/ Anti-Self Anti-Matter mine nonetheless/accountable half-mess// reduced to the irreducible now this once All-or-Nothin’/Roaming invisibly among the rest//
with no destination
I walk eat & sleep alone/I hate it-&- cannot unmake it// lest we simplify, lest I reduce as I’m being reduced in factorization//… for in subtractin’ one is losin’ bits of self, in minimizing one leaves scenes of life unreturned...///
Losing Misplacing this phasing of consciousness
wears me out/// Looking restocking the cramped edgy corners of my sickened head/// Losing Mismatching dysphasing of time on my body taking toll/// Looking re-stuck-in this cycle of mini cataclysms & unforgiving hell prisms.////
Reducing to the irreducible: my life devoluting, my Self unbecoming, my world convoluting.
Reduced-&-Irreducible: turned in to a nothin’, sultry mistress to my misery disguising the sad naughtyness.
-with nothing to live for I no longer have to expect;
not to mention care or self-respect— I’m some of a thing–
—restructured undoing down to my core/Anti-Self Anti-Matter not really mattering ‘
’til I shared––
—-In this state of inter-textual action-play/ irreducible All is lost with All left to gain—-
reduced signification in factorization ad-infinitum