CDQ= {M/P + BS}(3)*

Cycle Duration Quotient = Result of the SUM of Mood divided between Physical markers Plus the PRODUCT of Brain-mind variance multiplied by Sleep hours TIMES three. *

*subject to the randomly organized shifts ocurring in clusters of 3,5,7 hours… or days, but never weeks. Aka the ‘stable instability’ factor.



Por un tiempo desaparecer dejar de sentirme desvanecer descansar de mi pseudoexistencia. Es mi deseo, justa y exactamente lo que no puede ser.

Between Not Yet

In the space between measures ||| Filling the chasm [ ] In between thin dashed lines – – – Tracing the gap –  – In between hyper and ventilation /] A void not yet emptied /-|]*

*/Cold inertia spilling out of me over everything ’cause I am here not yet there like a stain of dark ink my tainted blood paints it all I am done not yet begun like this storm I insisted to hold still but somehow just started paralyzing me ’cause maybe it can’t be any other way. Not just yet.]