I wished to die today- but I can’t say so I
try to forget
And many times do, yet it persists stretching my chest
Making me remember many other times too.
I wished to die today- once again so I
ignore to adapt
Honor the feeling but run it past, yet it comes after me
A detour in my path each time
about me I’m asked
I wish to die– though to disappear would suffice
I wish to die and that’s ok
or at least I am
I won’t tell
but now I can’t really forget This pain I can’t ignore, defy, or control
I wished to die today- one of many times before
I wished to die today- like a girl 20 years ago
I wish for Death– for it always dissipates
As I seek ways to survive instead.
But I can’t say- so I lie once
more & yet again
suddenly fine though few can see
I am strongly not how I claim to be as of late.