never whole but 1/3 i am in obscurity unbelieved and tamed. not in balance but off-center my world bounces and i miss my step into the next dimension. not empty but 1/3 i am in overly stimulated paralysis both here and there. and i try to survive but i need my other 2/3 or at least 1 to function. because one axis is broken in shards of opaque rainbows and not recovering. and i try to juggle mix and match in this triple architecture. bleeding atrium gives way to this bizarre trinity of self-detachment. never to be whole but 1/3 i am in this broken tri-axis with hopelessness, intrigue and shame.