being bipolar just doesn’t take enough space…

Introducing OCD Rituals_Anxiety Attacks_General Anxiety_Eating Disorders. Also, those little nuisances of regular work and life situations. Why little? Because in my mind, those are the last of my worries. Seriously, when you can’t even use your belongings because of contamination issues, when you are basically imprisoned because anything!!!! triggers unrelenting anxiety and paranoia, not to mention anxiety attacks while driving -which by the way you do sort of recklessly both because of mania and feeling like you’re escaping all the chaos- When it’s harder to hold a conversation than the actual work itself, and you unconsciously cringe if anyone gets close to you because of contamination, even beating mania’s hypersexual seduction, and depression’s need for affection… if you would often rather stay hungry than go through the anxiety attack in public -When you take”crying” breaks at work, or better yet, spend your meal break crying…And remember, this is on top of the fact you are  either manic, mixed, or depressed at all times in cycles ranging from 3 days to 3 hours…

Believe me, life’s regular hardships are the last things on this increasingly overflowing now small storage space that used to be my brilliant bipolar brain. Sorry if my selves don’t fit into your little pretty square compartment of a mind.

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