I wish I was beautiful

I’m somewhere you can’t reach, Not sure that I can either

Life- terrifying, beautiful

Me- a stranger, a foreign object

Locked out from life itself

I wish I could undo the horrors, Thriving within the Death of Me

I am nothing, I am everything, my own void fills me up

Overwhelmed, I come undone

I split, dissociative stance, outsider in my own skin

Like a soothing anesthesia it slows the madness

I can now see the Beauty of it all

Darkness is beautiful, Darkness my cozy home

However, isn’t Light beautiful too? The rest of the world agrees

Light burns my skin, Light has cast me out


Silver lining is gone

Though I know the Beauty of Darkness

I will never be beautiful