Note to self: Would you PLEASE leave me be? At least for the duration of my shift? Come on, we know how our boundaries work, our ever-present tug of war.
I don’t mind playing. In fact, I accept my reality is defeat on the large scale of things. However, since to earn $$$ I show the small scale of things, hindering me from doing it WELL would be mutually harmful. Imagine me with no job. You would wreak havoc.
In short: NO JOB + HAVOC = DANGEROUSLY BIPOLAR